This is on my www.badcb.blogspot.ca:
Dec. 15 Writer interview (Part 3): Here is another
interview with an imaginary host interviewing me. This was written over a period of a few weeks
in Nov. 2014 before I typed it up today.
It’s kind of therapeutic like I’m talking to a counselor.
Host: So it’s been awhile since you went to the
Counselor #3. It was in your blog post
“counseling/ should I continue into TV production?” Since then you put up 3 emails/ blog posts a
week. It used to be 1 post a week about
writing and now it’s 2 posts a week about writing. Why is that?
Tracy:
If you look at my “Anita Shreve/ Northwest Angle/ digital version” post, you
can see I’m battling writer’s block. I
put up book reviews to know the stories and author interviews to know the
creative process. I have expanded to
paid writing articles:
“Writing off magazines/ bad writing”:
I also put up a post about self- publishing “Melissa Leong’s
self-publishing (Part 1)”:
Host: So what about paid writing?
Tracy:
The articles were kind of sad because the reality is that it’s very hard to be
a writer that gets paid.
Host: Do you plan on self-publishing?
Tracy:
I don’t have a book to self-publish. I
have a completed screenplay The Vertex Fighter and 2 blogs.
I know when to narrow and widen my focus. For 3 yrs, 2008-2010 of constantly pitching
my script. Then I got laid off from the
Soup place and I was busy looking for a job and then working. In 2014, I widened my focus with putting up
book reviews, author interviews, paid writing articles, and self-publishing
articles in my blog.
You don’t know this, but after I put up the articles on my
blogs, I then put the newspapers into a big envelope and give it to my
co-worker Je. At first I cut out a few
comics and articles in the news about superheroes and zombies like The
Walking Dead. But now, I decided to
throw in those book articles too.
Usually my inspiration comes from watching good TV shows
like Once Upon a Time and The Mentalist. Or checking out new shows during the fall and
mid-season. I also read TV shows and
movie reviews in the newspaper.
Host: So what’s the feedback on the “writing” posts?
Tracy:
None of my friends or blog readers have made any comments about why I post 2
blog posts a week about writing. It’s
rare that my friends email me back and people comment on my blog. I can see people read my posts by my page
views. I can only imagine their feedback
like:
“Put up more non-fiction book reviews, because I prefer to
read non-fiction.”
“Put up more fiction book reviews, because I prefer
fiction.”
“Write about something else like the news more often.”
I don’t know, it’s my speculation. I also speculate friends and blog readers are
like: “Wow, Tracy sure cuts out a
lot of news articles about writing.”
Host: Are you still cutting out news articles about
writing?
Tracy:
Yeah, but I’m more selective. I have
written about this before around 2013, I got laid off in 2010, and I start
reading the newspaper more often because I had more free time. I look for a job a lot, but it doesn’t fill
out the whole day. I found good articles
and I cut it out. In 2010-2012, I cut
out a lot. By 2013, I really need to not
cut out so much. Now it’s 2014, and I am
creating the digital version by putting all these articles up. In a way, it’s like people putting up
pictures up on the cloud.
I’m going to mainly put up all these old articles from
2010-2012 because they’re old.
Host: So you put up all these articles about writing. So have you beaten writer’s block?
Tracy:
I haven’t written any scripts. I did
expose myself to all these books and authors, paid writing, and
self-publishing, but I haven’t written a script. I put these articles up and write my opinions
on it.
Host: So what happens when you finish putting up all
these writing articles up on your blog?
Tracy:
I don’t know if I can finish putting up all these articles. I did cut out some writing articles in 2013
and 2014. Not as much. At the very least I tried and expanded my
mind by rereading all these articles.
And I decluttered and got my friends and blog readers reading these
articles.
After all this, I haven’t found my life direction. Career wise.
I didn’t beat writer’s block.
Host: Did you really think that you would get your
groove back, life direction, beat writer’s block, find your inspiration and
motivation back in all these news articles about writing?
Tracy:
Yeah. Well is there anyone here who
thought it was so out there that I was reading writer’s articles to get
inspiration and motivation to write? I
was inspired, but not enough to write a script, continue pitching my script, or
get my writing career going.
It’s one of those things where you have to try and act on
it, to see how it goes. It’s like going
to a job interview. You can prepare by
researching the company, anticipating questions, rehearsing answers, and then
go to it. After the interview, they may
decide to hire someone else. At least
you went to the interview and acted on it.
At least I tried to be inspired to get my writing career
going by putting up all these writing articles up.
Dec. 16 Dynacor Media: Yesterday I was sick. I remember this time way back in 2012: The
Year of New Directions where I started applying to TV production companies. I talked to my friend A on the phone and she
asked why I didn’t do this sooner. I did
way back in 2008. It was around Apr.-
Jun. 2008.
Yesterday I went on my blog and started looking for it. I thought I wrote about it. I edited some spelling mistakes on posts, and
put titles to my posts that were missing titles. I read through Apr.- Jun. 2008 posts and then
some posts before and after that time.
I can’t find the job interview. I might as well say it now. I did an interview at Dynacor Media. I took a taxi to the interview.
Jan. 4 Publishing companies: I am now looking for a
job at publishing companies. I thought:
“Did I look for a job at publishing companies before?” I looked it up on my blog and I did in
2012. I remember the name of one company
Lone Pine Publishing, but I don’t remember applying. That’s why I encourage all of you to keep a
blog or a journal.
It’s to keep track of the passage of time. You never know what you forget. What if you have amnesia or Alzheimer’s?
Lone Pine Publishing is really far away from where I live.
